Last night, before going to bed, my husband said, “I love how he looks when he’s asleep.” He was referring to our son, Gabriel. During his waking hours, Gabriel’s mind is active. Often, his thoughts are moving faster than his tongue, and that can be extremely frustrating for him. For the most part though, he is a happy boy with a very active imagination. But because of this, sleep does not always come easily for Gabriel. It’s better now, but there was a time when it would take him hours to fall asleep. Then, he would wake up only a few hours later in the middle of the night as if he just slept 12 hours. This was a battleground for me, a real fight with my flesh, which was crying out for more sleep. It’s one thing to be up all night studying for finals or nursing a newborn or taking care of a sick child. But it was not supposed to be this way with my then-6-year-old son. This was another thing that The Lord was showing me I had to surrender to Him.
Eventually, it got better, and now, he sleeps through the night. But he still takes a long time to fall asleep and wakes up pretty early. I like having time in the morning before the kids get up to pray and read my Bible. One of the best sounds is the quiet of the early morning hours. However, these times are often cut short by the careful turn of my door knob. No matter how early I would set my alarm, Gabriel had his own internal alarm clock that told him Mommy was awake.
This is how Jesus handled early morning interruptions.
“And rising very early in the morning, while it was still dark, he departed and went out to a desolate place, and there he prayed. And Simon and those who were with him searched for him, and they found him and said to him, ‘Everyone is looking for you.’ And he said to them, ‘Let us go on to the next towns, that I may preach there also, for that is why I came out.'” (Mark 1:35-38)
I still have much to learn on this. When I am curled up in my chair and the morning light has not yet appeared … when I embrace the solitude and begin to pray and meditate on God’s Word … and when the pitter patter of little bare feet breaks that silence, I pray that my response would not be irritation, but instead, a willingness to do the works God has prepared for me that day.
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